Feeling Sick

No, not ill physically or suffering from the lurgy, but feeling sick because I'm all knotted up emotionally inside. You'll remember earlier posts about a friend who was having rather a bad time, she really had been through the mill and as luck would have it, our feckless Pole moved out of the little house at just the time when she needed somewhere to move into to start a new life. Since then, Kim and I have been going flat out to get the place sorted; we even delayed paying the vicar for our wedding (looming in September) so that we could get the house into a good state and ready to move into, with fresh decoration and new carpets.

All seemed to be going well until nearly three weeks ago, when I got a brief email saying that my friend was going to disappear for a few days as her husband had turned up at the house but that she would be back by the weekend, a matter of four or five days. Since then, there has been a deafening silence. No emails, no replies to my email enquiries to ask if she is safe and well. I only have a mobile number for her and she said that she was handing that to the Police as she had been receiving abusive texts and calls, so though I tried the number, there was no reply. I have become increasingly worried - to the point where I have had to do something.

Today I tried calling the local Police constabulary to find that the number just rang and rang, so I resorted to an email to the Inspector. Thank goodness, he must have been sitting at his machine as I have just had a reply that, although he is off work today, he will be getting an officer to check up on my friend. I have to say that I'm impressed with the response. I thought I would feel relieved... but I just feel sick.

Assuming my friend hasn't had a bout of amnesia or been abducted by aliens, the two most likely outcomes are either that she can't be bothered to be in contact with me, so isn't taking calls or responding to email, or, the worst possible scenario, that something has happened to her so that she can't be in contact. If it is the former, though it would be hurtful, I would feel a great sense of relief, but can't until I know she is safe; if it is the latter, it is not a good outcome. So, here I am, sitting hoping that nothing bad has happened and also hoping that I had not misjudged our friendship, but hoping that I have as it's the best possible scenario that I can think of. So, I feel a bit sick.

If you are reading this, please spare a thought or prayer for my friend that she is safe and well. The Police have said they will hopefully be able to let me know what's happening tonight.